I was sitting here texting you on the phone about your care package.
But at the same time I was writing you a little note card to put in your care package. The flash was instant and clear as day. I have never "seen"/experienced this scenario before, and maybe it's because I have really never sent you a care pkg before. If you think about it, we almost instantly lived together, and when we broke up - neither one of us really gave a shit to send something nice and thoughtful to the other.
So maybe it took me doing what I was doing to put me in the right place and mindset to open the psychic link...???
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But I was sitting here at my desk, pen to card, writing you a heartfelt message, in kindness... and there I was! I am doing the very same thing, but in another time...
I am sitting at a worn out kitchen table, writing to you, lit by an oil lamp. And I'm **THERE**, not picturing this scene in my mind, but I'm seeing this through my own eyes. I can see my ragged dress, my worn and calloused hands, the old farm house I am in, the paper and ink that I have taken great lengths to save for special occasions and hard times, and the tear stained letter I am writing to you.
I closed my eyes to see your face so I can have the strength to continue writing to you. And when I pictured you, I saw you on your belly in a confederate uniform, firing your rifle across a field, and then I pictured you laying on the ground wounded and waiting to see doctors. I don't know what happened to you after that. I think the way I pictured you was my own "thoughts" at that time, my fears of what you were enduring in the war. I don't think it was what you were actually doing (if that makes sense). But I knew that I had to keep writing my letters to you because they kept you going so that I knew in my heart I would see you come back home.It was just an emotional flood for me. I never thought of us being connected in that kind of past life. We always talked about something maybe in a seaside Tuscan village... but THAT just floored me.
I'm still shaking...
and trying to keep from crying...
