Disappointed...

Originally Posted on 5/2/08

I have come to this grand conclusion that I am already so easily disappointed when it comes to my expectations of other people. Friends, family, work partners, lovers, roommates, and sometimes strangers even. And you may ask WHY?

Here's the scoop:
I look at other people with big dumb starry eyes begging myself to understand just why they don't have the same standards I do. I don't believe myself to be some exceptionally grand and perfect person. I am frankly honest with myself in saying that perfection in human-kind does not exist. I firmly believe that. I do. But I honestly do believe that my values and concepts should be pretty standard across the board with just about everyone.

Sadly, they are not.

Over the years, I have helped friends with money, somewhere to stay, someone to write to when they got locked up, listened to their drama, hooked them up with their lovers, etc., only to find myself ALONE when I ended up being the one in need. I have had my fill of *fair weather friends*.

I was actually delighted in recent months to have made *friends* with a more mature person, who is educated, motherly, and seemed responsible. In the last month, my eyes have been opened. Let's just say that the idea of being responsible must have vastly different meanings for the two of us.

I don't expect someone to babysit my better half (BH) when I am away. BH don't need a babysitter. BH is over 21 and free to make her own choices in life. But I do expect a friend to keep in mind that my BH depends on regular doses of narcotics just to walk and function, and I would expect them to know that my BH might not make a good judgement call because of this. I am sadly disappointed to know that someone who calls themselves a *friend* would not only provide the copious amounts of Jose Quervo given to my BH last night, but would let them drive home squarely drunk, fucked up as hell, instead of getting them a cab for the 3 mile ride home. Not to mention that this same friend is just low enough to take advantage of intoxication for the purpose of seducing my BH... which she likely tried to do, or did.

Lets contemplate the *BAD* factors with this scenario.
Alcohol and Pain Pills - BAD MIX.
Alcohol potentates the pain pills' depression of Central Nervous System function.
In English? OVERDOSE.

KNOWN & POTENTIAL EFFECTS:
Decreased respiratory effort, possibility of respiratory arrest.
Decreased alertness and awareness, possible complete unconsciousness and unresponsiveness.
Increased nausea and vomiting, possible choking on your own vomit (resulting in ummm... DEATH).
Slowing of mentation, POSSIBLE D.U.I.
DUI = ARREST.
Arrest = NO BAIL MONEY.
No bail money = SPOUSE IN JAIL INDEFINITELY.
THAT ONE IS BAD. REALLY BAD.

If that is the standard to which our friends operate...... NO THANKS.